decision?

J'en ai marre de vivre.
J'en ai marre de respirer surtour ici.
Ils sont là ? Mais ils me comprennent pas ...
même pas la cause de mes larmes.


What I should do ...
What I should choose to do so ...

To run away and never be back but the result will suck , as I could imagine.
To stay and stand as if it will last one day even though I don't see its end.

I hate living here.
Why should I come back here?

I'm asking ... but no answer.